100 Lotus Flowers

2009: 100 Lotus Flowers taking me through a transition in my life. Each flower is a message which brings me closer to the goal. I try to come to terms with myself, and be myself. What messages do the flowers hold?
2013: What is the goal? I no longer know what it is, except for reaching the 100. But the 100 was not supposed to be the goal itself, but rather help reach the.....the.....I am lost, honestly lost. Everything I was striving for has diminished in importance. I do not know what to strive for. I think striving for anything now is pointless....but I will keep drawing and painting.
2014: A renewed sense of purpose, things seem to be falling into place.


100 Lotus Flowers, 100 points of healing.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Number 54 - Centerless

Centerless - Samantha Rochard
My centre has disappeared

The "Me" that makes up my core has dissipated into the swirling activities around me. I have sacrificed myself to these energies at the expense of ME.

All my being is fractured.

There are bubbles of activity on the outskirts of happen stance, which may assist in bringing my whole. For this to happen, I have to scrape a foundation of my person back, and remove bits of me from those distracting energies.......
This journey is far more sapping than I realized, and cycles keep repeating themselves.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Number 53 - Dark Heart Lotus Flower

Dark Heart Lotus Flower - Samantha Rochard
The cracks are beginning to form 
on that wall which surrounds your heart.
Its protection is weakening, and soon the arrow which hovers waiting 
will indeed pierce it, and cause it to bleed.
Such it is with love, whether you fear it or desire it,
 with love, comes pain.
With intense love, comes intense pain.
The bitterness of one, contrasts the sweet pleasure of the other.
Both will ever be present.....
..... unless you turn you heart to stone.

Sunday, September 09, 2012

Number 52- Fairy Lotus Flower

Fairy Lotus Flower - Samantha Rochard
So... here is number 52. Which came with an urge to be cleansed of worry. Probably I have the notion of creating a life in my utopia?

But in any event during this drawing I was thinking about the core things that I need to be happy. And I was developing a cleansing ritual to rid myself of them. I rid by water...now to rid by fire.

Fairy Lotus Flower brings desires to live my dream....and it was necessary to re-think what was needed to make that dream happen.....which I am still developing.....
Blessed Be.