100 Lotus Flowers
2009: 100 Lotus Flowers taking me through a transition in my life. Each flower is a message which brings me closer to the goal. I try to come to terms with myself, and be myself. What messages do the flowers hold?
2013: What is the goal? I no longer know what it is, except for reaching the 100. But the 100 was not supposed to be the goal itself, but rather help reach the.....the.....I am lost, honestly lost. Everything I was striving for has diminished in importance. I do not know what to strive for. I think striving for anything now is pointless....but I will keep drawing and painting.
2014: A renewed sense of purpose, things seem to be falling into place.
100 Lotus Flowers, 100 points of healing.
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Fifty - Eighth Lotus Flower - Connection to inner flame
There is a flame at my center. It keeps me warm in life. The are things that cause it to burn brighter, and things that cause it to die a little...inside.
I know the effects that some things bring....but I am still in the world...trying. To stop testing the effects that things out there have on your flame will surely cause it to die? Won't it?
When you stop trying, testing, experimenting....isn't that when the world falls around you and you sink into apathy?
....and isn't apathy painful?
Simply to exist, with no fire, no passion, no need or want for life.....doesn't it numb your soul?
Keep fanning the flame....reach out and test, try, experience. Yes, the flame may die sometimes, but sometimes it will grow.But to not try at all?
Well....it will most surely die eventually.